my name is ryan. this is my website. i happen to do some musical stuff but basically i'm a fat mentally challenged dork who happens to scrouge up enough for web hosting plans occasionally. i live in the southern united cancers, and i spend a lot of time in my room. my interests include old electronics, obscure shit, collecting things, watching old movies, and laying in bed. i like doing that the most.
i write this site more or less by hand in html, looking up css tags on w3schools when necessary, and i've managed to get a tiny bit better at it. i still tend to reference code though. the only part of this site that i don't make myself is the blog, i use an old java app called thingamablog to do that. i've still yet to set it up to actually publish to the site itself via FTP, so i upload it manually. that's why the archives don't work.
i tend to think i'm an edgy person, but honestly, i'm tired of being super edgy. sometimes i use very colorful language because i can be a very angry person but i try to be relatively calm. i suffer a lot of intrusive thoughts, anxiety, and depression, so i don't tend to be the most stable, but i like to try and make friends despite my mental illnesses. i really like people who are different from me, because i want to challenge the stupid biases i might have in my head that were systemically implanted in me.
i like a lot of loud break-based music but i'm generally into most genres, except babymaking music (r&b) and nonce pride music (country). i enjoy movies like fear of a black hat, and black dynamite. comedy is probably my favorite genre but i also like some dramas. i've been watching more anime recently, and i think my all time favorite would probably be lucky star. god, i really wish i could wake up one day and be akira kogami. i'd still wanna be me and do the things i do, but i wish i was her instead of an obese fuck. (example of aforementioned mental illness.)
i do like to find things that challenge me, and i enjoy dark works, but they need to have some kind of actual point if they aren't going to be pure comedy fests. y'know, more of a todd solondz than a lucifer valentine.
umm.. i don't have much else to say. uhm. feel free to donate to my ko-fi if you think my page is cute an' funny an' you wanna see me keep it going. i try to update it regularly because it makes me happy to have my own little space where i can do whatever i want... bibi!